Monday.. not so blue day

have you ever called someone and out of a sudden, you just cant spell anything out but deep inside you want to say many things??

well, that's what happened to me earlier this morning. i got an sms from a dear friend, Z, at 4.30am. here how it goes:

"Ayah aku meninggal dunia pagi tadi at 4.15am"

Right after that, i spent another 10 mins in a state of confuse. As a friend, i want to help Z as much as i can. And yet, I dont know what to do. Should i call and say i understand what you're going through? Coz, obviously i dont since i have never experienced that in my lifetime. At least, not yet! I know for a fact, Z has handled this whole situation flawlessly, better than any other ordinary human.

Me and Z have been close friends since college days and the father has been hospitalized for the past 4-5 months, diagnosed with cancer. Started of with minor backpains which at first thought of excessive workouts. Then, the docs said something about prostate. Me and R went up to see them at the hospital when the father first admitted. Docs told the family not to worry about anything since this is the smallest type of cancer. Dont even need to do chemo for that matter.

Then, after few weeks, the cancer spread up to kidney and liver. By that time, i knew the situation was worsening. Me and couple other companions wanted to visit last week but we never made the trip since the father was not in good shape to accept guests. So, we postponed our visit hoping he would get a little bit better for our visit. Unfortunately, our plan visit never materialized. Allah loves him more than the rest of us.

I did manage to call Z and wished and prayed to stay strong while facing this challenge of endurance.

Al-Fatihah.